It's a long time I didnt write anything here.

My wish of love is always so simple. I just want my love will see me as his only one, who loves me, cherishes me, and kisses me only. Why...........my loves like to search for other girls? not one...not two.......uncountable.......5 years passed, i am still suffering the same pain.

Guys never think they are doing wrong, just trying to switch the focus on blaming the women.

hmmm recently baby has been so busy and wanted to sleep early, so we cannot talk much and see each other. that has made me feel lonely sometimes...

i understand but i dont wanna force...but as a girl, as a girlfriend...of cuz i want my baby is always placing me at the first place...think about me more than everything! but i know its not reality........but...this time talking and seeing my baby less....really make me feel lonely..... :(

baby told me that he cannot get the visa and must be forced to leave china to africa....it really broke my heart...cuz we gotta seperate very far away and cannot see each other....i hate that i hate that i hate that!!!!

i tried not to cry cuz baby dont like me crying, but sometimes i cant control my tears, especially when im alone i keep thinking and thinking, then my tears keep coming...i dont worry baby will not love me, i just worried we will be further and further and ruin our relationship.......i wanna stay with baby forever, i want we can get closer and closer, i wanna see u more, kiss u more and touch u more. i just want u! why is my little dream so difficult to achieve?? why put so many difficulties on my baby?? why....

awwwww finally i could do the test and i did it!! and it showed that i had nothing!! hmm the result made me relaxed soooo much!! it had been bothering me for near 1 month...omg!! the dream is wrong hahahahahaha...

hmmm baby must pay me back 32 dollar and a little gift for making me worry for a month huh!! heheheheheheeeee XDDDDD

im still so worried...time is passing very slowly

i really hope its wrong...please.....please........

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but im glad that i have my baby's support

baby girl is sooo cute hahaha mommy feed her alot but her daddy has been so busy huh!! hmmm is it nice to give her 2 friends, chicken and mouse? hahaha and shes holding a heart very sweet like mommy and daddy hehehee...

it is so true!! haha

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When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "
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hmmm...ur so busy lately...and i can only see u for about 1 hour or less and sometimes i cant even see u cuz ur too tired...busy is good cuz it means u can earn more...hmmm just make me miss u even more....i wanna see u more but i want u to save more money too hmmmm....baby i really miss u sooooooo much....

love u always

a

tonight we had 2 more baby girls!! but 1 was given very light skin like me and another one had black skin hahaha but htey are both cuteeeeee i love them!!! so now we have 3 cartoon kids, the oldest brother and 2 sisters hehehe... :p

hmmmm...daddy made her dress...very weird hahaha

purple princess!! cute huh? i dressed her more beautifully hehe